Have you ever noticed...

...that when you are bored, you find it difficult to be inspired by anything?

Here's the deal. I'm working full time from home and I'm about 5 weeks out from my due date. Work isn't really keeping me busy and I find myself putzing around the house pretty much all day.

I am really physically uncomfortable and can't just get up and go like I used to. Yesterday afternoon I took myself to a movie. It was great but my back hurt like hell because sitting in one position (in a movie theater chair) isn't easy for someone who's 35 weeks pregnant.

Also, it's freakin' hot outside. Not "oh-wow-it's-really-summertime" hot, but more like "Tarzan-couldn't-take-this" kind of hot. Add to the equation that I have my own private furnace running 24/7 and it's easy to be cranky all the time.

So I spend a lot of time indoors. It's hard to find fun, inspiring ways to fill up your time when you are:

- supposed to be working
- physically uncomfortable
- completely unwilling to spend time outside

It pretty much stinks. Thank God I am still working, though, because when things come up and I actually do have stuff to do (probably 30% of my day), I feel like I have a purpose in life and aren't just some huge pregnant slob.

And all is not for naught - good things have been happening lately. A young woman asked me to be her sponsor the other night which was a HUGE honor. I came into program at 19 (so young!) and have never since been asked to be anyone's sponsor. I'm sure it's partly because of my age, but I think partly because I was never really open to it before. I'm feeling pretty good these days, like I actually might have something to offer someone and it's so validating to have someone else say that they'd like YOU to be their sponsor. Yay me!

Also - we started our birthing class which is going to be AMAZING. More on that in the baby blog.

And my life isn't totally pointless - I just keep trying to remember that this down time - this restful, quiet time - isn't going to last forever (or for long!). I'm sure that I'm going to look back longingly on afternoons like today when I sat on the couch watching Dr. Phil and stuffing my face with cheesy poofs. I just wish I could enjoy it more WHILE I'm doing it, instead of wishing that I could be up and about.

Anyway, back to my original point....when you're bored, you're boring. And that's how I'm feeling today. I'm sure this, too, shall pass but I wish it would hurry up and move along so I could feel something else!