Random Thoughts
Lots going on in my head the past couple of days....thought I'd write some of it down.
Why is it that I am so interested in the lives of people I used to know? I'm talking people I haven't seen or talked to in over 10 years. I recently created a My Space page and was overjoyed to be reunited with a couple people that used to be really important to me - those aren't the people I'm talking about. And I'm not talking about high school or college ex boyfriends, either. I'm talking about people that you went to Elementary School with and never spoke to after 7th grade. I'm talking about people you had a crush on freshman year for a week. I'm obsessed with finding these people! I don't want to contact them - I just want to see how they are doing. Maybe it's just a way of visiting the "me" I used to be back then. Or maybe it's psycho and weird. I'm open to your thoughts.
We had friends over for dinner last night - good friends who I love very much. (Hi Kathryn - if you're reading!! ) Makes me miss the times when ALL I did was hang out with friends, every night of the week. Life is different now - mostly better. But I still miss all of that stuff. It's hard to find couples that both of us can really connect with. I think it's hard anywhere - but it's particularly hard when you don't live in a neighborhood or in a big city.
I'm also scared that we're entering into some baby black hole come July and I'm never going to see anyone I know and love ever again. Of course, that's not rational - I understand that - but it's still a fear I have.
And I'm strating to think how nice it will be to have my body back once I'm not pregnant anymore. I worry about being able to lose weight after the wedding - it doesn't help that I have to get myself into a bridesmaid's dress for a friend's wedding about 10 weeks after the baby is born. Ugh. The dress has to be custom made for me so it will fit and I'm going to have to get a fitting done in mid-September, when the baby is about 7 weeks old. Yowsa.
I have this presentation for work next week that's got me a bit on edge. I have to train a group of 10 teachers on my product. It's not going to be particularly hard but I've never done it nor seen it done, so I'm really flying solo. I've spent time today and yesterday preparing some training documents that will be my crutch. Preparation seems to be the only thing that keeps my nerves in check.
Brian's working from home starting this week - and it's a little surreal having him around. My natural tendency is to procrastinate or not get work done because I'm usually not working while he's in the house. It's been really nice, though - he makes me lunch every day (bonus!) and we bump into each other now and again. I have to really concentrate on working so I don't get behind or distract him. I think he feels the same way...
So that's my update. If you want to check out my My Space page, it's here: http://www.myspace.com/10833703.
Happy Surfing! :)
Why is it that I am so interested in the lives of people I used to know? I'm talking people I haven't seen or talked to in over 10 years. I recently created a My Space page and was overjoyed to be reunited with a couple people that used to be really important to me - those aren't the people I'm talking about. And I'm not talking about high school or college ex boyfriends, either. I'm talking about people that you went to Elementary School with and never spoke to after 7th grade. I'm talking about people you had a crush on freshman year for a week. I'm obsessed with finding these people! I don't want to contact them - I just want to see how they are doing. Maybe it's just a way of visiting the "me" I used to be back then. Or maybe it's psycho and weird. I'm open to your thoughts.
We had friends over for dinner last night - good friends who I love very much. (Hi Kathryn - if you're reading!! ) Makes me miss the times when ALL I did was hang out with friends, every night of the week. Life is different now - mostly better. But I still miss all of that stuff. It's hard to find couples that both of us can really connect with. I think it's hard anywhere - but it's particularly hard when you don't live in a neighborhood or in a big city.
I'm also scared that we're entering into some baby black hole come July and I'm never going to see anyone I know and love ever again. Of course, that's not rational - I understand that - but it's still a fear I have.
And I'm strating to think how nice it will be to have my body back once I'm not pregnant anymore. I worry about being able to lose weight after the wedding - it doesn't help that I have to get myself into a bridesmaid's dress for a friend's wedding about 10 weeks after the baby is born. Ugh. The dress has to be custom made for me so it will fit and I'm going to have to get a fitting done in mid-September, when the baby is about 7 weeks old. Yowsa.
I have this presentation for work next week that's got me a bit on edge. I have to train a group of 10 teachers on my product. It's not going to be particularly hard but I've never done it nor seen it done, so I'm really flying solo. I've spent time today and yesterday preparing some training documents that will be my crutch. Preparation seems to be the only thing that keeps my nerves in check.
Brian's working from home starting this week - and it's a little surreal having him around. My natural tendency is to procrastinate or not get work done because I'm usually not working while he's in the house. It's been really nice, though - he makes me lunch every day (bonus!) and we bump into each other now and again. I have to really concentrate on working so I don't get behind or distract him. I think he feels the same way...
So that's my update. If you want to check out my My Space page, it's here: http://www.myspace.com/10833703.
Happy Surfing! :)
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