One of those days
So I've been having crazy dreams about ex-boyfriends for the past couple of weeks. Every song on the radio seems to bring back some memory I haven't thought of in years.
I think part of the reason I'm having these flashbacks is because I'm surrounded by 18-22 year olds in school all day and have somehow hooked in to their frequency. So maybe that's why I'm remembering my life at 18-22.
But there's more to it than that, too. I'm seeing these people really clearly in my dreams. One of them is a recurring character - I dream about him constantly and I'm pretty sure that he has become a symbol of something, subconcsiously. (I'd love to know what!) This guy is from high school; a beautiful creature who I adored for years. Even throughout college I would wonder where he was...but I haven't seen him in over eleven years. I heard he got married...on my husband's birthday. creepy. He had such an impact on me for such a long time, I'm sure he represents the past (or something like that) in my dreams.
Then there's the college guy, my first real love (and heartbreak), who hasn't made many appearances in my dreams until recently. He's a goofball, a really fun guy in real life but in my dreams he's always REALLY serious. Odd, right?
My dreams have been peppered with other appearances from guys in my past, but nothing important enough to write about.
There's a pattern to the dreams, though. The two men are usually experiencing whatever I'm going through in my life. And sometimes, they are experiencing it with me. For example, in the last week I've had dreams that the college guy is expecting his first child. In real life, this guy is dating someone, but I'm not even sure it's going to last.
Sometimes, these guys are stand-ins for my husband. That's when it gets kind of disturbing. I've talked to Brian about it and he agrees that these guys are symbols for something in my life. I agree but it still bugs me that I'm having dreams like this every night. I wonder what my subconscious is trying to tell me?
Anyway, I had crazy dreams the year before I got married so I'm sure I'll have crazy dreams while I'm pregnant, too. With all the changes that are going to happen in my life in the next year, my subconscious is probably just on overdrive. Add in all of the hormones that are running wild in my body right now and there you have it. Right?
I think part of the reason I'm having these flashbacks is because I'm surrounded by 18-22 year olds in school all day and have somehow hooked in to their frequency. So maybe that's why I'm remembering my life at 18-22.
But there's more to it than that, too. I'm seeing these people really clearly in my dreams. One of them is a recurring character - I dream about him constantly and I'm pretty sure that he has become a symbol of something, subconcsiously. (I'd love to know what!) This guy is from high school; a beautiful creature who I adored for years. Even throughout college I would wonder where he was...but I haven't seen him in over eleven years. I heard he got married...on my husband's birthday. creepy. He had such an impact on me for such a long time, I'm sure he represents the past (or something like that) in my dreams.
Then there's the college guy, my first real love (and heartbreak), who hasn't made many appearances in my dreams until recently. He's a goofball, a really fun guy in real life but in my dreams he's always REALLY serious. Odd, right?
My dreams have been peppered with other appearances from guys in my past, but nothing important enough to write about.
There's a pattern to the dreams, though. The two men are usually experiencing whatever I'm going through in my life. And sometimes, they are experiencing it with me. For example, in the last week I've had dreams that the college guy is expecting his first child. In real life, this guy is dating someone, but I'm not even sure it's going to last.
Sometimes, these guys are stand-ins for my husband. That's when it gets kind of disturbing. I've talked to Brian about it and he agrees that these guys are symbols for something in my life. I agree but it still bugs me that I'm having dreams like this every night. I wonder what my subconscious is trying to tell me?
Anyway, I had crazy dreams the year before I got married so I'm sure I'll have crazy dreams while I'm pregnant, too. With all the changes that are going to happen in my life in the next year, my subconscious is probably just on overdrive. Add in all of the hormones that are running wild in my body right now and there you have it. Right?
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