It's not like me to only post in my blog once every five days or so. But that's my pattern for the last few weeks, because I've got so much going on that my head is spinning.

Between the move, unpacking, working, school, and trying to set up services (Internet, cable, phone, etc.), I'm fucking crazy.

Right now, I'm particularly unbalanced. I want to sit down on the floor and put my head to my knees and just have a good cry. I can't keep up with everything around me. My work is suffering big time...I don't understand what I'm doing or what I'm expected to do. My boss is never available to help me. I don't have internet in my house, so all of my work hours are spent in a noisy, hot coffee shop. It's charming, but it's not a conducive work environment.

All I want to do is be in my own house. My new house. And I'm never there.

I'm so frustrated that I'm expected to do all of this work on the house because Brian "has to be at the office." What winds up happening is that I get no work done (fr my company) because I'm so inundated with contractor appointments and phone calls from service companies. I can't do this all by myself. Period.

What I really need is Internet. It's just a must. It's not negotiable. If I had Internet, I would at least be able to work when I wanted to work and not be a slave to the coffee shop and my class hours.

I feel like a basketcase. I don't have the support network here that I did in NoVa and I'm definitely feeling it. The truth is, even if I did have the support network, I wouldn't have time to be on the phone or go out to dinner with friends, or whatever. I haven't gotten to a meeting in two weeks!

I feel like everything is up to me. Everything relies on me being responsible. Brian has checked out and is unwilling to help. But I can't function without at least Internet and a phone line in my house. And I can't seem to get to the right people that can help me!