Awareness

It's funny the way an awareness comes to me. Usually, it's several parallel awarenesses that converge into one eventful time period in my life.

This time, I got hit with two HUGE changes in my perception in two very short weeks. They are both pretty private, so I'll be vague.

The thing about big perception changes (or as I call them, 'new awarenesses') is that they are scary and sometimes even painful. But on the other side of the grief and fear is a wonderful new perception of my reality. And that new perception seems to have fewer illusions. I rely less on historical definitions of people anbd relationships and I accept my new realities.

It sounds cryptic, I know. But it's a huge deal. I like being a truth-teller in my own life and bearing witness to my experience. I like knowing how I feel and what is okay with me. I like making my serenity the priority. And when I do all of this, I almost undoubtedly like myself better.