Feeling Better

Okay, so I went to a good meeting last night and got some of my frustrations out.

Things also came to a head with my sister and we were able to work things out. I'm feeling much better about that whole situation.

What I'm realizing is that it is easier to get frustrated about material things (someone using my car, etc.) than it is to feel the sadness of having a sister that lives far, far away. That may sound crazy, but it's starting to make a whole lot of sense to me.

Still working on the shame thing--it's no fun. I'm trying to practice being powerless. I'm powerless over feeling shameful. I'm powerless over choices I've made in the past. I'm powerless over allowing myself to get to this weight. Powerless, powerless, powerless.

I'm breathing better, which is a wonderful thing!