Balance, Please?

I'm having a hard time finding balance between work and life. When I am kicking ass at work (like this week), my home life goes to shit. When my home life is great, my work suffers. I'm trying to find a balance, but it's so frustrating.

I'm feeling down about some stuff going on between Brian and me. We're in the process of making two big decisions and it's not going well. I feel like he's becoming increasingly absent. This is a place we've been before, though, and I have faith that it'll work out.

What's upsetting about this situation is that I feel myself becoming more angry and wanting to spend less time with him. I think that it's natural to want to spend less time with someone who seems emotionally absent....frankly, I think it's a natural consequence. But I do feel sad that I don't want to be around him. He's my best friend and my partner....

So I'm going into this weekend with plans to spend time by myself tonight, with girlfriends tomorrow, and with Program on Saturday night and Sunday. I don't want to give myself an opportunity to be disappointed by his absence or to feel sorry for myself for not having plans when he's gone.

The bottom line is, I have some work to do on this before I'm ready to talk about it with him. So I'm going to take care of myself and expect nothing from him until I'm in a better place to talk about it.