CH-CH-CH-CH-Changes!
Man, it's like somebody flipped a switch inside of me.
I've never been that girl who's preoccupied with having kids. It wasn't until my mid-twenties (when B and I got serious) that I even decided that kids were a possibility in my future!
If I didn't know better, I'd think that someone had hijacked my uterus and made it scream out for a fetal addition. What gives?
I was sitting in a coffee shop this morning, waiting for my car to get an oil change next door. A little girl walked in with her young parents and I got all teary-eyed! And then, it was as if some alter-ego's voice inside my head finally became unleashed and started telling me (screaming, actually) that "it's time" and "you're totally ready." I damn near fell off my chair.
I never believed in "biological clocks" and other such nonsense. I've joked before that "my biological clock is ticking like THIS!", but mostly just as a referece to "My Cousin Vinny," a really funny movie. I swear to you, though, this clock stuff is real and it's powerful.
Overall, however, I remain resistant to the notion that my body is made for having babies and that it will naturally urge me to do so. Fuck that. Babies are a CHOICE, not an instict--at least for me, anyway. I'm just totally surprised by the intensity of the urges that I've had today.
To be honest, I thought that Brian would be the first to want children. He's a family man to the hilt. I remember being totally freaked out when I asked him what he thought he was put on this earth to do and he replied, "to be a husband and a father." What twenty-two year old says that and means it?!?!
Anyway, I'm not running out and buying an ovulation-thermometer or anything, but I did do a little research on the internet and as a result, went out and bought some folic acid. Apparently, it's never too early to start taking that stuff and it really helps in preventing spinal complications during pregnancies.
Also, during my research, I came across some scary information. The first part was about body weight and what kind of role it plays in pregnancies. Women who are overweight are much more likely to have complications, miscarriages, or babies with birth defects. Considering I'm packing on the pounds (and have never been particularly thin), it's a point of concern for me. Just another reason to try to shave off some extra weight, I guess.
Secondly, and more concerning, is my history of gynecological problems. To spare the details, let's just say that I have 1/3 the cervix of a normal woman, due to a procedure I had to have done several years back. This is a leading cause of miscarriage and early labor. Yikes! There's a surgery that stiches your cervix shut--which my OB/GYN had told me about previously, but what I didn't know (and found out today) is that this surgery can cause complications, and even miscarriages, all by itself!
Anyway, I'm obviously freaking out about the future, which is useless. But it's never to early to arm yourself with knowledge, right?
I've never been that girl who's preoccupied with having kids. It wasn't until my mid-twenties (when B and I got serious) that I even decided that kids were a possibility in my future!
If I didn't know better, I'd think that someone had hijacked my uterus and made it scream out for a fetal addition. What gives?
I was sitting in a coffee shop this morning, waiting for my car to get an oil change next door. A little girl walked in with her young parents and I got all teary-eyed! And then, it was as if some alter-ego's voice inside my head finally became unleashed and started telling me (screaming, actually) that "it's time" and "you're totally ready." I damn near fell off my chair.
I never believed in "biological clocks" and other such nonsense. I've joked before that "my biological clock is ticking like THIS!", but mostly just as a referece to "My Cousin Vinny," a really funny movie. I swear to you, though, this clock stuff is real and it's powerful.
Overall, however, I remain resistant to the notion that my body is made for having babies and that it will naturally urge me to do so. Fuck that. Babies are a CHOICE, not an instict--at least for me, anyway. I'm just totally surprised by the intensity of the urges that I've had today.
To be honest, I thought that Brian would be the first to want children. He's a family man to the hilt. I remember being totally freaked out when I asked him what he thought he was put on this earth to do and he replied, "to be a husband and a father." What twenty-two year old says that and means it?!?!
Anyway, I'm not running out and buying an ovulation-thermometer or anything, but I did do a little research on the internet and as a result, went out and bought some folic acid. Apparently, it's never too early to start taking that stuff and it really helps in preventing spinal complications during pregnancies.
Also, during my research, I came across some scary information. The first part was about body weight and what kind of role it plays in pregnancies. Women who are overweight are much more likely to have complications, miscarriages, or babies with birth defects. Considering I'm packing on the pounds (and have never been particularly thin), it's a point of concern for me. Just another reason to try to shave off some extra weight, I guess.
Secondly, and more concerning, is my history of gynecological problems. To spare the details, let's just say that I have 1/3 the cervix of a normal woman, due to a procedure I had to have done several years back. This is a leading cause of miscarriage and early labor. Yikes! There's a surgery that stiches your cervix shut--which my OB/GYN had told me about previously, but what I didn't know (and found out today) is that this surgery can cause complications, and even miscarriages, all by itself!
Anyway, I'm obviously freaking out about the future, which is useless. But it's never to early to arm yourself with knowledge, right?
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